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Surat untuk diri sendiri

2006-08-21T20:54:00.000-07:00

(PERHATIAN! KALAU DAH BACA BLOG ENTRY NIH TOLONG JANGAN INGAT UJA NI GILA PULAK NI CUMA LUAHAN HATI.)

Kehadapan diri aku sendiri...
buat apa kau skrang?... sehat ke?... aku rasa cam tak sihat aje.. bukan tak sihat apa. sebab aku tengok kau cam tak happy aje... kenapa ngan kau nih?... aku sedih tgk kau cam nih...

diri aku sendiri...
aku hanya dapat melihat. dapat mendengar. tapi aku tak dapat membantu sangat... aku cuma harap kau rapatkan diri dan mengadulah pada Ilahi... padaNya saja kau dapat ketenangan diri kau... dapat mencari jawapan atas pencarian kau selama nih... aku akan tersenyum dan bahgia bila tengok kau ketawa... tapi aku tahu tu hanyala untuk sementara ajekan?.. kau berpura2... kau boleh tipu orang lain tapi jgn harap kau boleh tipu diri aku... kalau kau tak puas hati dengan sesiapa kau cakap ajela terus terang...

diri aku sendiri...
aku dapat lihat jugak... kau suka pendam perasaan... dulu kau selalu tulis perasaan kau dalam diari... kemana dah hilangkan kesukaan kau tu... aku dah makin kurang paham ngan diri kau skrang nih... memangla kita nih macam kembar tapi kau cam dah mengasingkan diri kau ngan aku... kau cuba nak menipu diri aku... tapi tak dapat kan?...kenapa kau nak buat cam tuh?...

diri aku sendiri...
keje kau dah dapat?.. tapi apa lagi skrang yg kau tunggu... penuhila impian kau yg lain lagi.. jgn abaikan masa muda kau nih... nanti kau akan menyesal... aku harap dan berdoa kau akan bahgia dengan siapa saja yg kau sayang... jg tersalah langkah nanti aku jugak yg akan terasa...

diri aku sendiri...
akhir sekali aku harap kau selalula senyum... sebab aku dapat lihat bila kau senyum... keserian kau menyerlah... senyum la dengan se ikhlas yg mungkin... senyum dengan ikhlas lagi menyerlahkan keserian diri kau tu... sekali lagi... aku doakan kau akan mencapai segala apa yg kau impikan... jagalah hubungan kau dengan Din tu... aku tahu die amat sayang kan kau... aku pernah dengar die cakap..."Ma kalau takde , pa mati lah"... terharu bila aku dengar die cakap cam tu kat kau... sayangilah die seikhlas hati kau... kau akan rasa bahgia nanti...

sekian dahulu buat tatapan diri kau...
wassalam...

dari...
diri kau sendiri...

Dun Ask

2006-08-19T21:18:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened lately,except that im now bumming around at home again. I've got an administrative job in Kaki Bukit which is very very near to where im stayin. But the thing is , i will be commencing work on the 2nd week of September. Its only 20 August. Still got about 2 weeks more. But the best part is that i will be working with my best friend, Ain. Isnt it great to have your best buddy from school to be working in the same place? Ain , we are going to be colleagues.. :P And yeah , dun ask me about MINDS. Never ask me that...

Ok so.. i have many plans for myself such as .. i wanna take my driving licence, my mak andam course and also thinking of joining the early childhood course which will begin in Jan 2007. But.. i cant do all this now! Coz im penniless... arghh.. it sucks having a hole in your pocket. Ok the reason why i wanna take up the mak andam course is becoz i have a very deep interest in make-up , and i am thinking of doing some freelance once i got the cert. To earn some side income on weekends. Maybe i can provide home makeover services , makeup for parties , DnD , or for special dates.! Hehehe..or maybe engagement.. Ok now tengah berangan lah ni... Nah we'll see... Kalau ader rezeki...

Ok right now, im always at home. Why? coz i look like shit. Haha..Im actually in the process of growing out my barely there eyebrow. I want it to grow fully and thick. And then im going to go threading to trim off the unwanted hairs. I want to look different. I realized pencil thin eyebrows are out now. Eyebrows that are thick in the front and thin at the back are in. So that is why i cant go out , coz my eyebrow is in a funny state as it has not fully grown yet. Looks like i have to wait for abt 1 week.

From Christina Aguilera's eyebrow

To Preity Zinta's eyebrow

Any suggestions on what hair colour goes well with me? Im changing my hair colour, i get sick and tired of my hair colour very often.Its always in shades of brown.... And i want a haircolour that is not too bright.. I want to look decent... khekehekehekeh

Some of the colours im thinking of dyeing ....

Photos Update(Recent Pics)

2006-08-12T00:53:00.000-07:00

Im lazy to type a blog entry... can i just update photos instead? hehehe

Heartbreaking

2006-07-25T21:53:00.000-07:00

I have a story to tell , a heartbreaking one..

I was out as usual and hubby dropped me at the block next to mine.While walking me to the lift, we saw a very pretty cat, but i saw the hind feet is bleeding. I just cant bear to leave the cat alone and decided to bring it up to my house and treat its wound and bring her back down when she's ok. But when i bring her up , i made a small mistake of not keeping my cat,Boboy, in another room beforehand. She was attacked by Boboy. The whole situation was so scary i just shouted and mum helped by throwing pillows at Boboy. The poor female cat ran to the toilet and hid behind the toilet seat. Boboy was locked in another room after that. But little did i know that the bleeding i saw earlier on is not because of her injury , she is actually going to give birth. Blood was everywhere in the toilet and she became so scared after the attack and didnt allow me to touch her anymore. Then , i witness her giving birth , it was scary. The baby is dead. I believe she had a miscarriage when being attacked by Boboy. Her pregnancy was such a tragic one , being attacked by a male cat , and giving birth in a toilet , wet environment and her babies are dead. I tried to clean her up but she hisses at me and became very angry. I have no choice but to wait till tomorrow. The next day when i saw her , my heart sank. She was still in the same place as she is the day before , covered in her own blood and shit. The baby kitten is no where to be seen. I believed she ate her kitten..I cried and cried... a lot. I just blame my self for her suffering. If i didnt bring her up to my house all this wouldnt have happened. My intention was to help but i guess i messed things up. Now she is in a trauma and everytime i tried to carry her , to bring her back to where she belongs, she will get angry n screamed...and hissed at me. The only thing i can do is wait for her to get well and will bring her back down. Now the thing is , i cant get this whole scenario off my mind. I keep blaming my self, im filled with regret and i just felt like crying all the time. All because , i think the cat's failed pregnancy is all because of me. ME ME ME!!! You may think im overrreacting this.. u may think its just a cat.. but no! Im a pet lover... i get upset over these kinda things. Animals have feelings too..Im just... upset.... :(

Yippeee!

2006-07-23T06:53:00.000-07:00

Yippee ! New layout done all by myself! Atlast dah pandai eh.. hehe

Will update tomorrow aite! Promise!

Sorry

2006-05-27T03:19:00.000-07:00

Ok sorry for not updating..")

Alrright.. recap...on my bday..nothing much , just went for dinner wit hubby at Swensens....and hanging around Bugis.And will be treating my family for my very belated birthday dinner at the end of the month , i hve to wait for my pay ok! Work is killing me , i mean the half the people there is ok... but the other half just sucks.. wann play punk with me.. salah org lah... And i really detest one of my supervisor.. She's so irritating i hate it when im in the same shift as her. Lucky me , she will be back to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal soon as she is working temporary in Harbourfront. I guess , its office politics, there are bound to be misunderstandings and hatred amongst each other. But i've learned a lot in these 2 months. I learned how rude can customers be , how they can just throw their passport in your face and how they will use vulgar words at you if there's any misbookings. Sometimes i lose my patience and ended up arguing with them. I cant help it , im a very hot tempered person to begin with. And there's this very irritating indonesian guy who i try to avoid everyday... he keep bugging me to go lunch with him... buy me all sorts of stuffs eg. chocolates,crackers,drinks,dinner when im in the pm shift. And when he found out that its my bday... he bought me a watch which i believe he bought it from Batam. He is such a turn off because , i hate guys with thick moustache , i hate guys with very long and yellow fingernails (all his 10 fingernails are verrrry long, yucks) , i hate guys whose nosehair can be seen protruding from their nose (unhygienic!!!) , i hate guys who wear very very tight jeans which well i leave it to your imagination.(tersempal!) See , how can i not avoid him?! But i wont mind if its the cute immigration police bothering me.. He can bother me all he wants. Haha , lucky hubby doesnt read my blog.. Hubby is very protective and possesive nowadays. I was out once and didnt answer his call coz my prepaid is low and he called me 80 times without any intervals! Crazy hubby.. He's always scared when im out.. he dun really trust me i know that.. he knows that im those mentel type ..ahah ... but the most i'll do is look at cute guys, hey everyone does that... but hubby's jealousy sometimes irritate me. Too much of it is no good. But i still love him... its good to know that someone loves you.. A LOT.... :p :p :p

Ok , enuff ramblings... here r some pics i took fw days ago... i lurveee itt..

Chaoromano!! TATA!

ehem ehem

2006-04-23T19:23:00.000-07:00

I made Hubby a card... it looks so kiddy but i think he will like it ....

A close up of the stick figures i drew.. haha

Cant wait to pass it to him , we havent even had a celebration. *sighs*
Anyway , met Nisha yesterday to Bugis coz she wants to shop for herself and her baby. So i willingly agreed. Her baby get bigger each time i meet him. And he's so cute.

Nisha and her baby...

Baby Danish

Me in the baby care room

And me before leaving the house

I cant wait for pay day , there are a few list of items that i wanna buy.. hmmm.. but i dont think i can buy all of it this month... coz since i jus started work , my pay wont be that much this month considering i joined the company on 5 April , and the two day of unpaid leave last week. Maybe i 'll just buy the handphone first.. Hehehe

Nokia 6280 , i fell in love with it...

And next mth i will buy either one of these Guess bag.. :P

Ok ..I will have to work in the afternoon shift till the end of the month .Arghhhh... i hate it , i love morning shift coz i finish early and i still can hang out and all.. Plus , i cant wait for my uniform!!! Right now , temporarily i am wearing the polo t shirt meant for the part-timers. Urgh i hate polo t shirts.. make me look funny... Why are they taking such a long time to give the uniform?

Me , in the office doing email enquiries...

used to

2006-04-21T06:15:00.000-07:00

When i was in school , i used to think that working life is great. But now , i think otherwise. I have to wake up as early as 4.45a.m if i am in the morning shift... and i reach home near to midnight if i am in the afternoon shift. No more watching tv , no more hanging out on weekends as my job requires me to work on Sat,Sun and Public Holidays.... Haizz i guess its just life... you go thru changes... one time i was in school, studying... now i am in the office , taking reservations...preparing boarding pass, facing with difficult passengers... But im lucky that my job doesnt require me to do anything physical...i just sit the whole day... i think its been a long time since i sweat.. haha.. One thing i learned... dont get involved in gossips in the office..!!!!

There are a few funny incidents... some passengers had weird names like Bettina..Bangun..Mak Pan Tat... haha i almost laughed my butt off!

i better get some sleep now... Ciaoz!

I miss my hubby ! I miss the tv !...

18 April!!!!!

2006-04-17T20:07:00.000-07:00

Wooooooooooohooooooo! Its 18 April!! Happy 3 Years Anniversary Hubby!! I cant believe we became a part of each other's lives this day three years ago. I cant imagine life without you... you complete me and you took care of me for the past three years... I LOVE YOU HUBBYYYYY!!!!

From Indochine to Harbourfront

2006-04-08T05:58:00.000-07:00

Allright... sorry for not updating aitez , just that i've started work and i've been really tired.Im so used of waking up late everyday for 5 freaking months.. and now that i've started working.. i find it soo tiring.. but i will adapt to it somehow. Anyway last week , i went to Indochine with the 'kecoh gang'... i was so jakun.. from starters to main course to desserts... i was like 'whoaaahh'... haha what can i say... i prefer coffeeshops.. where the food is cheaper... and hmm a lot more in quantity.. But like wat Anip's mum said , we should pamper ourselves once in a while.. Hmm...

Before dinner

Yana checking out the menu...

A drink called Pretty In Pink

Starters

Fish n Chips

Last but not least...

BORED

2006-04-02T01:06:00.000-08:00

Urgh.. im bored.. and what do i do when im bored? I did my own Do-It-Yourself Makeover. Hehe.. u can call me crazy or vain.. but i just love doing this.. ok...

The Styliztic Collection... hairstyle inspired by Nicole Richie.. haha (perasan beb)

And my favourite one...

And then.. suddenly the little monster came to disturb me...and he bit me

Itchy Monster

tIS IS fUNNY

2006-03-26T23:39:00.000-08:00

20 people you can think of right off yourhead (name not in order)20 people you can think of right off yourhead (name not in order)

1. Ain
2. Yana
3. Din
4. Anip
5. Nisha
6. Nurul
7. Fazilah(kakak)
8. Boboy
9. Ibni
10. Zulie
11. Kemy
12. Khizlena
13. Rian
14. Zarieo
15. Aznie
16. Mak
17. Dila
18. Ayu
19. Apai
20. Fader (Abang)

-How did you meet 13?
:From ITE Bishan , we were in the same class...

-What would you do if you never met 5?
: if i never met 5 , i would never get to see her married andwould never get to carry her son...

-What do you honestly think of 10?
: She's a totally gorgeous babe , nice hair nice body nice complexion.. total perfection...

-Have you ever liked no.3?
:like?!! no way...love him much much

-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?
:how i wish god would take my life away the day before tomorrow...

-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?
: Of course they would *winks*

-Do you think 12 is hot?
Yeah she is... much more rambut dah panjang sekarang.. haha

Next-Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple?
Woit.. lesbian kah?

-Tell me something about 11
: Hensem burger!!! Serious...

-Do you know any of 3's family members?
: all of them

-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?
:irritatingly cute..i'll give him an "8" hehe

-What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you
: hahaha.. 4 is anip right??? no no way...

-What language 19 speaks?
melayu lah..

-Who is 8 going out with?
: 8 is currently single coz he is bOBOY my cat... lolz

-Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?
:nolah.... they r both gals... tsk

-When was the last time you talked to 6?
: shld be last wk on the fone...

-What is 18's favorite band?
:Ermm... ntah eh..

-Does 4 have any siblings?
:yah..2 sisters...

-Would you ever date 1?
:dating sentiasa...selalu eh.. kan kan kan?

-Would you ever date 7?
: we always go out on dates... to window shop.. right sis?

-Is 15 single?
:Erm i think she is now...

-what is 19s last name?
: Ramlan!

-What is 3's middle name?
: Saharudin BiN mOhD KAsIM

l-What is 10's fantasy?
:hmm...ape agaknye??!!

-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?
: Woohoo.. Apai and Zarieo??? Hmm zarieo would like it tho...

-What school does 16 go to?
:Mak?! I think religious school

-What school does 1 go to?
: ITE College Central Bishan

-Where does 9 live?
: Tamp or Pasir Ris.. haha luper lerk

-Would you make out with 13?
: Haizzzz...

-Are 5 and 6 best friends?
: They are frenz but not best frenz...

-Is 20 older than you?
:hahaha..he's 9 years older than me

-is 4 the sexiest bitch alive?
: Wohoo.. he's the sexiest dude... jgn kembang ehk

-is 17 your ex?
:merepek!!

- how is 2?
Doing fine... working as usual..

zZzZzzzz

2006-03-26T22:52:00.000-08:00

Hubby! You are awarded a DIPLOMA for being the best boyfriend ever! heheheh

Hehe , orite my weekends were fun except that i had my pms and i was soooo in pain but i went to town to meet up wit hubby and anip and we juz walked around ,have our meal and jus chatted while looking out for a girl for anip haha.. he is soo choosy..and we met up with yana and lan at night after she finishes work...But i did went to York Boutique to purchase a top , hehe yippee.. love it, especially the 40% discount and the free necklace that comes with it. But i havent even had the chance to wear it , and... guess what... its broken.. :( I guess things that come for free are never good... I am wondering if any of u. who reads my blog , nows where is Bead Street and Adrinah Fashion??

I wanna check out the stuffs there... Tag me if you know ok? Thanks ....

(PS: I miss Ain! Ain where r youuuu!?????)

Yippee

2006-03-23T05:16:00.000-08:00

Yippee... went to Ite Bishan today to collect my cdc award... i was so shocked by the amount given.. how much?? secrettt.... hehe.. met hubby just now.. i feel so sad when i met him.. he came from work and he looked so tired.. nak carik duit ni bukan senang eh.. maklum lah kumpul duit kahwin.. haha... Dear.. nevermind ok.. sekarang susah dulu.. biar senang kemudian..k. i will always be by ur side. When i was on the way to Bishan.. i met these two crazy frenz.. they forced me to sit down wit them and with their tak tahu maluness asked me to snap their pic...

The Tak Malu Boyz

So i chatted with them for a while and then i realised , i was late.. Haha got a scolding from Hubby....

Ok lah nothing much to share today except for ehem ehem.. My pic.. taken infront of the lift.. I look so fake in this pic.. fake smile man...

I know i know

2006-03-18T03:12:00.000-08:00

I know i know , i've been a very BAD girl for not updating since last month. Just that , i forgot that this blog even exists. Ok to make up for it here's a super duper long entry for ya...

Allright where do i start.... My cousin's wedding was superb , she's soo beautiful and her wedding went on smoothly. A banghra troupe came to perform a dance and the kompang group sang Enjit Enjit Semut for us. Haha.. the funny part was when me and the other cousins got 5 bucks each for taking part in the 'hadang pengantin' session.That was my first time and all i said was "bayar tol, bayar tol dulu"..

The beautiful bride

Me , Granny and Sis... granny cant stand the flash

Spot me... :P

Me and the decoration rose i took from the wedding cake

And so the day ended with me having an aching feet and a very bad migraine. The two cousins from Johor came for a sleepover at my house since its their school holidays. They wanted me to turn them into a bride and so i became a 'mak andam' , hairstylist and a photographer at one go. The end product?

The elder sis

The younger sis

Shuhaida

Nurbahiyah

The two lovely sisters

Makeup Artist - Me
Hairstylist- Me
Venue of photoshoot- My home
Wardrobe by- My sis
Backdrop- My yellow curtain and my orange wall
Photographer- Me ( taken with Panasonic Lumix digicam)

Allright enuff bout that , went to meet Nisha yesterday to accompany her to her son's checkup in Kandang Kerbau Hospital. Her son is just sooo tiny.. he is very fragile and sleeps most of the time. Well he is 1 month 3 weeks old , what do you expect? But i was happy to see her coz the last time i saw her was ermm 1 month 3 weeks ago at the hospital when she just gave birth to Danish Irfan. Glad to see that the operation wound had healed and she's back on her feet. She looked healthier now.. and very radiant.

Had this photo taken before i went out

Me lying beside Danish , he seems happy..doesnt he?

Feeding time..

Nisha changing his diapers

Isnt he just too cute to be true?

Me and Nisha..

Ok there you go , a fresh new entry with a fresh new layout... HAPPY READING

Happy Valentine's Day

2006-02-15T01:53:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got a rose from hubby.. hehe..

Hubby and the Rose...

Met up with Ain and Yan to have our lunch at Pizza Hut and we ate the LoveBerry Pizza. And also ate Strawberry Kiss as desserts.

Its just kek lapis with strawberry pudding... ahaha

Me and Ain enjoying our valentine..

Hubby thinking bout all the money he had spent.. hahahaha

Long Day

2006-02-13T18:41:00.000-08:00

Went to my sister's workplace to help her decorate her class and i got 30bucks just by cutting clouds and pasting construction papers on the notice board. Then met up with hubby and we took a neoprint.. coz usually it costs 7bucks but due to the valentine's day promotion...it cost 5bucks... I persuaded Ain and Yan to join us so that it wont be too boring.. sometimes when im out with hubby we will run out of things to do... And so we had this really big lunch treat from hubby which costs a bomb.. but puas hati! It was so delicious... i couldnt even breathe after that..After lunch we headed down to Downtown East to bowl. I dont know how to bowl!!! And i got the lowest score amongst all. Hahah.. i think im better of at playing pool. But its fun...Here's some pics i wanna share...

The small noticeboard...

My sister drew this.. but i painted it.... :)

My sis making the clouds...

The End product....

Teaching the kids the wrong thing , dragonfly cant fly up to the clouds...

Pretty pretty,

My sis ,

Butter Chicken...

TomYam Soup...

Ikan Bakar...

Kailan Beef

Ain , gobbling up her food..

Sambal Sotong

STRIKEEE!!!

Last but not least , Hubby showing off his skills..

Bored

2006-02-02T08:12:00.000-08:00

Guess what... i spent the whole day watching tv....and thats all i do... im so farkin bored.. Hubby plz take me out...quit ur job!!! Nah juz jokin... dont quit.. or else u wont be able to marry me.. haha.. Watched American Idol.. i just find it funny.. why are there people who are so over confident? Why bother to audition if u know ur voice sucks? And why must you spank ur butts or wear weird costumes to auditions? Do you think it will get you to Hollywood? Fellow Singaporeans who r thinking of auditioning for Sg Idol 2006 , plz.. dress appropriately.. audition only if u have what it takes.. and plz.. being too over-confident wont help as well.. You have to balance it.. We wont want any unsung heroes again...

Got hold of Paula Abdul's pic during her younger days...

I think she look better when she was younger... without botox..

I think Simon's attractive guy..

Go Randy.. go randy...

Its 2am.. and im still not asleep.. haizz.. thought of visiting nisha in the hospital tomorrow.. just got news that she was re-admitted to the hospital because the stitches on her stomach was broken... scary.. the thought of having to rip my stomach open and bringing out a baby just scares me.. i hope when its my time to give birth.. i will give birth naturally.. Insya-Allah..

Arghh im so bored.. played a game which changes my name to another name.. its funny..

My Mushy name is : BabyDarling
My Bad name is : DumbBaby
Japanese name : Itchytoyo
Chinese name: ShiaLian

HAHA... allright.. i guess its time for me to hit da bed... nitez all...

Insomnia

2006-01-29T02:19:00.000-08:00

Help!! Helllppp!!!! Im leading a very unhealthy lifestyle.. I sleep at 4 am everyday.. i think im suffering from insomnia... no matter what time i go to bed.. i will only fall asleep at around 3plus to 4 am. Why is this happening to me? I have dark rings or dark circles or watever u call it.. all around my eyes.. now dont be fooled by my make-up... under those pressed powder are really dark circles.. and i look very tired without make-up. :( Im glad someone invented the CONCEALER. haha..
But seriously , what causes insomnia... and how do i overcome it? Hmm...

According to WWW.HEALTHATOZ.COM ,

On occasion, every one of us will have a night where we can't fall asleep or we keep waking. The cause may be a stressful day, too much caffeine, or worry or excitement about tomorrow. But when a person continues to experience insomnia, seek the advice of a health care provider. Without treatment, insomnia that persists can develop into a chronic (long-lasting) and relapsing condition.

Types of insomnia

Acute insomnia is most commonly the result of:

A stressful event.
Environmental disturbances such as noise or extreme temperatures (you feel too hot or too cold).
Disruption of your normal sleep/wake cycle, from jet lag or caring for a newborn, for example.
Side effects of certain medications (like some cough and cold medications).
Chronic insomnia tends to have more complex causes, including an underlying health condition and certain lifestyle habits. Physical or mental health conditions that cause insomnia follow:

Asthma, rheumatoid arthritis or other chronic pain conditions and congestive heart failure.
Mental health disorders, such as depression, anxiety or chronic stress.
Certain medications used to treat such conditions, including some drugs for high blood pressure, decongestants, and stimulating antidepressants. Note that caffeine, nicotine, alcohol and "recreational" drugs also can disrupt sleep.
A specific sleep disorder such as sleep apnea (a sleep-associated breathing problem) or restless leg syndrome.
Behavioral or lifestyle factors that can affect sleep include:

Excessive worrying, including worry about not being able to sleep.
Too much caffeine, alcohol, or other substances.
Disruption of sleep/wake cycle from shift work.
Poor sleep hygiene.

Ok now i know.. maybe i've been drinking too much coffee.. or maybe its my asthma..
hmm.....

Danish Irfan

2006-01-24T23:26:00.000-08:00

Finally , Nisha gave birth to a 2.8kg baby boy at 7.08am on 23 Jan 05. So me and Yana met up and went to Kandang Kerbau Hospital to visit the newborn and his mother who had to give birth through the caesarian operation. Her cervix had opened up to 7cm but she was unable to deliver it normally..its a pity she could not experience the normal way of delivery.. but its ok i guess.. as long as both mother and son are safe and well..

Yana and me in the bus...

And me as usual, acting cute..

Nisha was sleeping when we came..

Oh my god, her baby is just sooo tiny..and red.. i was so scared to carry the baby and told nisha that i will carry him when he is 2mths old. haha..

Presenting Danish Irfan...

We then took the shuttle bus to United Square... and went to Starbucks...

Chocolate Rhumba with Whipped Cream.. a finished one..haha

Yana.. posing for the camera..

Allright.. gottogo...

2006-01-22T03:16:00.000-08:00

Met hubby 2days ago and guess what? Hubby showed
me his provisional driving licence.. Yippee... a few
more steps to getting his bike licence..

Meanwhile, u just have to stick to the ones in the
arcade.. heheh

Went to Swensens yesterday with my sis and mum... and i
ate my favourite sticky chewy chocolate... its sooo delicious...

And some fries dip...

Today was all about staying home .... menstrual cramp sucks.. big time.. i hate staying at home having nothing to do.. And there's no decent programme showing on TV...argghhh i can just die of boredom...

Anyway , i got this really good job offer.... but its in Tuas... hmm.. thats sooo far.. i dunno if i want to go for the interview or not.. the journey will take me 2hrs.. I guess i have to think bout it first.. i dont wanna regret later..

Allright.. blogging makes m e sleepy... tataz!

Ooops!

2006-01-19T21:30:00.000-08:00

Ooops! .. i did not blog for 21 days... haha.. i forgot that i had a blog...Sometimes there are far more important things to do than blogging. For me , i only blog when i have the time... when i have the mood, i dont make it a must for me to blog everyday... But i do run out of ideas sometimes.. thus resulting in me not updating...

Got a very sweet sms from hubby..

Hubby: Love you sayang you forever...

ME: Bedek ah! Cakap dari hatike?

Hubby: Tak percaya? Betullah..

Me: okie lah caya lah..

Hubby: You mesti promise i takmo noti, jaga i, sayang i forever , jaga makan minom i.

Me: Sorri! Lum sign lagi.. suro mak u jaga makan minom u..

Haha.. Cheeky cheeky hubby!

Ok today's post will be very very long.. coz im bored to death right now....

oh yeah b4 i forgot...

To the January babies.... Ain , Nurul , Apai...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUYS!

Countdown 2006

2006-01-01T06:40:00.000-08:00

WELCOME 2006!

Went to Marina Bay to catch the fireworks and the crowd was unbelievable... It was worst than bazaar geylang.. serious.. but the fireworks were beautiful..

But after the fireworks display , it became boring and we decided to go to Downtown East, atleast there's music there..The midnight charge made me wanna faint... Reached home at 6.30am... and i fell asleep , even before i change my clothes..

Ok enough enjoy , i am going to look for a job after the holidays...

Gotta go..

Galpalz

2005-12-28T08:16:00.000-08:00

Went to Changi Beach yesterday... it was fun.. although our tent collapse due to the bad weather , and the sea is polluted with oil..we had a lot of fun..menyanyi lah , berenang lah , and the funny thing is that while we are pitching he tent , we lost our temper ,it was difficult to pitch a tent when the wind is blowing.We started shouting tu each other. It was funny.. and we found a dead fish at the shore.. and its mouth were wide open.. and hubby said "Kesian ikan tu, mati mulut ternganga". Haha.. couldnt take much pics coz i totally forgot.. i remembered only when we have changed our clothes...

Hubby and his sun-burned face...

I tried wearing hubby's over-sized cap...

Ahhh.. thats more like it...

Had a mini meet up wit my galpalz... catch up wit them since its been a long time since we gossiped.. haha..

She's 8 months pregnant...

Funny sms huh?

Isha and Caca... they are both married...

Qashirin aka Baby Aqash , you will be surprised to know that his mum is actually the small girl in the yellow tshirt...in the previous pic...

Lin trying to wipe off the baby's dripping saliva...

FAT BABE PART 1

2005-12-26T05:51:00.000-08:00

Being fat is the worst crime you can commit in today's society. You might not believe me, but then again if you aren't fat, you haven't faced the cruelty that comes with being fat. You probably haven't even spent all that much time thinking about what life would be like if you were fat.

When i say being fat is a crime, i don't mean in it the sense of conviction or the law. But when you are fat you are treated differently then everyone else in society. Today people pride themselves on being non judgemental and un-prejudice, but the reality is that most people whether they realize it or not place judgement on the way people look.

If you are a overweight you stand out when you walk in a crowd of people. Although the statistics are showing that more and more americans are overweight now a days, it can also be seen that society, the media, the people, everything that makes up society isn't overweight. All the famous people seem to be getting thinner and thinner, and they are so much of the american ideal, what the perfect people should look like. So when you're the overweight person walking in the crowd, no one looks around and says "oh look at all the thin people" they immediately are able to spot the people who are heavier. who don't seem to belong to the crowd as well.

Also when you're overweight it becomes harder to shop for clothing. I really hate that. Don't get me wrong..i don't hate thin people or anything, in fact all of my friends are amoung the small and trim.Even my boyfriend is thin . So this isn't about the fat girl being jealous or upset with thin people.

To Be Continued ...Part Two...

2005-12-26T03:52:00.000-08:00

Ok the whole family went to Tekka... and ate our lunch at a north indian restaurant.. yummy...

My sis and bro enjoying their meal..

Bought some cosmetics stuffs... and titbits for tomorrow's picnic with Hubby....
Cant wait.. it will be just the two of us.. i even got chocolates , blueberry tarts , sweets , pringles and one packet of drumlets and a packet of nuggets ready.I doubt we will finish everything. I even bought roasted chestnuts! hAHA.!
Orite gotta go prepare the stuffs.. Ciao..

Happy Birthday Precious...

2005-12-24T03:10:00.000-08:00

Another year has passed for you, sweetheart;
It's time to cut the cake and celebrate.
And once again, my love, I start to think
Of things about you I appreciate.

It means so much to have you in my life;
Your loving care fills up my days with pleasure.
Your warm and giving nature helps create
Close, special times together that I treasure.

I live within a safe and steady world
Because you love me unconditionally.
Your easygoing ways mean that I'm blessed
With peace and joy and blissful harmony.

To me your birthday is a precious day;
I hope it brings you joy in every way.

Hubby's Bday

2005-12-23T04:33:00.000-08:00

Hubby's bday is coming this Christmas... and guess wat? i got him a Mp3... in fact..its a Mp4.. coz we can upload photos and video clips.. apart from music..Hubby's gonna be very surprised....

He have been borrowing my Mp3 and when it comes to returning it , he will give excuses like he will be bored in the bus on the way to and from work. So i decided to get him one...

Hmm.. i dunno where to go on his birthday... i have a few ideas in mind.. and i want him to decide.. These are my suggested itineries..

1) Sentosa- Its been a long time since i went to Sentosa...we can go to the Images Of Singapore... and the Cinemania.. and maybe after that we can relax at Palawan beach?

2) Singapore Zoological Gardens- I love animals! Maybe we can go to the zoo.. and take photos with orang utans.. and ride on the elephants and pony.. and watch the Animal Show..hmm.. sounds like fun...

3) Changi Beach- Or we can go to changi beach.. buy nasi lemak , pitch our tent.. and. ehem ehem.. what else... swim?

But im very sure hubby will choose to go to the beach.. but im really looking forward for Sentosa, actually...Aite.. tata...

Wedding...

2005-12-22T03:31:00.000-08:00

Alhamdullilah... Nisha dah pon selamat di ijabkabulkan... i met her 2 days ago and we went to tekka for henna art... for her wedding and.. its beautiful... she paid 20bucks for it...

And i went to her akad nikah ceremony and she looked different... coz she dun usually apply makeup when she goes out , so she looked really different with bridal makeup..

Last but not least , me !!!

Me on Hubby's shoulders...

Thats about it... will update more...

Cheesy Cheese

2005-12-19T05:31:00.000-08:00

Met Hubby at his workplace today , i was so shocked when he carried a hamster. Its was in a cage and it so tiny. It seems that Hubby decided to keep a pet of his own. And he chose a hamster.. So cute..

Guess what? I named the hamster Chiko....

Then we went to Padang foodcourt in Toa Payoh to have lunch.. i really love the Chicken rice there.. simply delicious..

And now i realise how funny we looked while we are eating..

Ive been craving for cheesecake these few days , and so hubby bought me.. I was so happy... its yummy!

Mums coming home from Kelantan today. Yippee.. no more cooking on my own.. i hate cooking seriously.. Hope mum bring back some goodies for me..

Transformation..

2005-12-18T03:30:00.000-08:00

There are lots of ppl who came to me , telling me that i look different.
They told me i've changed. I let u be the judge.
Lets go on the journey of THE TRANSFORMATION OF UJA!.
haha crapz...

This is how selenger i look like when i was er.. younger... no makeup , no straight hair
and no fashionable clothes.

And later , i started wearing make-up.... hair still sucks...

And then , my hair grew longer and longer...

I started to have bangs...

And there is a point of time when i really love my hair,

And then i made a grave mistake of perming my hair... my hair turned haywire and no amount of treatment can ever save it. So im left with no choice but to snip it off!....

And so,, this is how i look now... with short hair,

Lazy

2005-12-18T03:04:00.000-08:00

I have been a lazy lazy girl. I have not been updating again.. Just tat , i dont know what to blog about... But i'll tell ya briefly what i've been up to...

Hmm... my results are out and yippee! I passed. Now i have to look for a full time job and embarked in a new phase in my life. No more boring school days for me. Im getting tired of just staying at home and going out with no income coming in. I need to look for a job. *Prays hard*. Well, had a fight with hubby and we did not talk for 3 days. But , we met up. And everything is ok now. Couples quarrel all the time right? I guess its just common. Met him at Sengkang and ate KFC. We have been having greasy chicken and mashed potatoes and cheeesy fries and mayo these few days. And i have been piling up..I persuaded hubby to attend my fren, Nisha's wedding next Wednesday. I cant believe it.. she's getting married...I cant wait to see her as a bride.

Dear Nisha ,

We used to meet up and go on blind-dates, remember? Remember the time when we met up with a chatter only to find out that he is physically disabled and you ran away leaving me stuck with him? Haha , those were the times... we found our loved ones and stopped meeting chatters.. And now you are getting married , although its gonna happen too soon , i still hope that you will be happy and please take care of yourself.

Wish you a lifetime of marital bliss..... Muackz.....

Another day at home..

2005-12-11T20:22:00.000-08:00

You're a Wild Drunk

You can get enough drink. Seriously, you'll just go puke and start pounding them back again!

What Kind of Drunk Are You?

I think they are right... haha

13 mORE dAYS...

2005-11-09T21:08:00.000-08:00

School's ending in 13 more days...this year, i made a bunch of friends.. great friends... but there's this particular friend who i treasure the most. She is someone who is concerned with everything i do , she calls me upon good and bad times , she understands me , she tells me the truth bout myself , she knows what im going thru all the times , she does not compete with me , she is genuinely happy for me when things go well , she tries to cheer me up when things go wrong and she's sucha sweetie. There you go , 10 reasons. Remember i asked you to give me ten reasons? Now this is my ten reasons on why u r sucha dear .

Dear Cute Fren ( ur nickname on my taggie)

Suddenly , we found ourselves becoming so rapat ,
We shared our deepest secrets , and things that we didnt even share
with our families.
We may have our disagreements...
We may have our dissapointments...
We may argue..
But we somehow dont get angry with each other for long ,
We started our group , our circle of friends..
But to me.. there is no beginning , there is no END.

Just dont forget me or i'll smack ur butt

Photos Galore!

2005-11-08T18:55:00.000-08:00

Yeyy

2005-10-28T06:07:00.000-07:00

Yippeee New LayOuT!!!!!!

Losers

2005-10-20T16:15:00.000-07:00

Sum ppl are juz losers.. especially the flat chested bitch and the gelled fringe bitch. Haha.Well im entitled to say whatever i want .. my thoughts.. my way... my say.. bitch... U can bitch around all you want i dun care. Go fuck yourselves. Haha.. Takmo nak jadi kepo.. nak step MinaVogue sini.. tak vogue langsung.. Mina Puki Miskin is da best word to describe you... At the end of the day , i dun giv a damn any way. Mampos cepat pon bagus.. Muka korang naik muak aku tengok. Tata Bitch..

Hmm.. Ok get it off my mind.. Ok me and hubby patched things up.. im so happy.. at last we talked things out and im happy that he's changed the way he talked to me. I cant wait to meet up with my primary school mates on Friday which is tomorrow.. Its been like 6 years and im glad that Friendster was created. I stumbled upon one of my ex pri sch mate and we have been in contact. And we decided to have a reunion and break fast together. Hmm cant wait.. to see how they look now.. coz the last time i saw them was when we parted during our PSLE results. We had made a promise to stay in contact wit each other... but 6 years passed.. sometimes i cant even remember how they look like. Im sure some of them turned to a minah.. and some.. relek.. as for me.. hard to say.. dah kene cap minah... but i disagree ah eh.... Haha (Ain confem tag pasal ni) . Thinking of asking hubby along but im sure he wont go coz he dont know them. Nevermind.. i cant waittttt.

I MiSS YoU

2005-10-18T11:01:00.000-07:00

I miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss YOU! Its been a week since we met lah Hubby!!!! Arghhhhhhhh This is killing meeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And my mucus filled nose is not helping at all.. im feeling so feverish right now.. But i dun care i still want to meet you... You are to accompany me to the clinic today becoz your dear girlfriend is not feeling well! Ok see you.....

As it is , this entry has got no point , no topic no nothing, its jus me blabbering whats in my mind... i have no mood... bye

What My Bday Means

2005-10-14T22:09:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: May 18

Your birthday on the 18th day of the month suggests than you are one who can work well with a group, but still remain someone who needs to maintain individual identity. There is a humanistic or philanthropic approach to business circumstances in which you find yourself. You may have good executive abilities, as you are very much the organizer and administrator.
You are broad-minded, tolerant and generous; a compassionate person that can inspire others with imaginative ideas. Some of your feelings may be expressed, but even more of them are apt to be repressed. There is a lot of drama in your personality and in the way you express yourself to others. Oddly enough, you don't expect as much in return as you give.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Fasting

2005-10-13T15:27:00.000-07:00

Its been a superrrr long time since i blogged. Just plain lazy. Fullstop.

Its the ramadhan month now , there are certain things i cant do during this month , due to respect. Hmm, went to Geylang with Hubby last week to survey his baju kurung. I love going to Geylang but i dun understand why muz ppl bring their babies there too? They brought their prams along and there was one incident i nearly fall when i stepped on a pram wheel. Duh.. And i have the courtesy to say sorry to that minah , she juz rolled her eyes on me. Freakin'' madddd. And the makcik makciks memang mintak kene jotos. They were so excited with all the langsirs and kerepekz available that they started pushing me to walk faster. What the ? I mean if i have to walk very fast there , i might as well join the walkathon right? And i realised something , they are minahs there who walk in groups and juz go to geylang to stare at other girls and start a fight. No life! You may call me a minah , but at least i dun pick fights wit ppl for no reason. To me the wonders of Geylang which attracts me is the FOOD, HENNA, and the latest addition , STRAW BAGS at just 5 bucks. Bugis lagi mahal! Hubby wants to go there again few days before raya hoping that the baju kurung he aimed dah turun harga.

Yesterday , i went to Geylang again. But this time round , its with ma gerlfrenz. We were so excited because this is our first raye together , coz we juz got to know each other this year. We had a lot of fun , and luffed all the way. We bought the same identical shoes there at only $18 and were given discount of $15. Bata sells them at $59. So its a good bargain.

I simply love it. We bought a lot of food yesterday and went to a void deck to chat and eat. Hailed a cab and reached home arnd 1 am. But i dunno why i cant sleep. I kept tossing and turning. Hubby was angry wit me yesterday for coming home late. Hubby is sooo bapak bapak! He gave me a CURFEW!. And he dont wanna talk to me and went to sleep. But i knew hubby wont be angry for long , know him too well. I received a msg this morning when i wakes up ,

" Good morning sayang , kol me lah , miz u lah. "

Haha , semalam dah marah orang , nari dah guilty... so sweetz of him..

hehekz..

2005-10-02T22:29:00.000-07:00

Met Hubby today after one whole dateless week. Haizz.. Hubby still have not seen my new haircut which is very short. I mean i have not been donning a short haircut since primary six. Im so used to long hair but too bad my hair is severely damaged and i need to snip it off. I felt like crying. But im adapting to it. Hubby said that i looked like someone who jus came out from the Girls Home. ahakz. Went to KFC and i ate the salad. I must admit to me its yummy. And i finished off Hubby's coleslaw. He got his pay today and as usual we travelled by cab most of the time. Thats him if u must know , once he got the money , he will splurge it on food and cab fare. He's so sweet today , always kissing my forehead.. i feel like a princess. Allright skool starts tommorrow and im going to the ZOO! Yes! I cant wait.. its been like ages since i went there.. I've always been an animal lover.. Expect some pics update tomoro aitez.. TATA!

back

2005-10-01T23:59:00.000-07:00

Went to Johor just now wit mum and sis by BUS. Arghh , my bro cant drive us there due to work commitment. So no choice we had to go by bus to collect our baju raye. The crowd was unbelievable!. We waited for 2 hrs just to go thru the johor custom. Finally reached Larkin and collected our baju raye.. Yipee. it turned out nice.. like baju tunang pulak.. over betul Uja.. hahakz. Ate yong tau foo and shopped a little and back to Singapore. Next time , no car no Johor.

Sweet

2005-09-25T16:05:00.000-07:00

Got this from Ain aka Lolita in my testimonial in Frenster and find it reallii sweet... wanna share it wit all of you...

kata mak,KAWAN tu ibarat lebah,habis madu sepah dibuang.......

kata abah,KAWAN tu umpama bunga ros,dipandang cantik dipegang sakit.....

kata atuk,KAWAN tu seperti airterus mengalir....

.kata nenek,KAWAN tu bak bulandipuja dan disanjung tp nun jauh di sana....

kate sedare,kawan tu mcm makanan,kawan makan kawan!!

kata abang,KAWAN tu seperti lembumengikut saje ape dikata........

kata kakak,KAWAN tu tak ubah macam durian bau je busuk tp sedap dimakan....

kata adik,KAWAN tu macam biskut sekejap ade sekejap takde.......

kata aku,kawan tu tak kisahlah camner..walaupun dia IBARAT LEBAH,UMPAMA BUNGA ROS,SEPERTI AIR,BAKBULAN,SEPERTI LEMBU,TAK UBAH MACAM DURIAN & MACAM BISKUT!!!dia tetap kawan...tau tak sebab ape???sekali aku dah kawan ngan dia selamanye dia tetap kawan aku..

Prepaid Or Line?

2005-09-24T23:31:00.000-07:00

Hmm decided to sign up a new line since i've got a phone but no sim card. I dont wanna use a prepaid card coz i think im not up to it. I prefer a line , but then again i will have to purchase a phone together with the line right? So i was wondering , what will i do with the phone? Hmm met Hubby just now went to Compass Point coz its my turn to fetch him from work. Hubby wore his new shoes and he lokked so cute and boyish in that. Haha. Went to Plaza Singapura's Starhub counter and signed up a new line with a Nokia 6020. Give the phone to Hubby. He's so happy coz his current phone is a cocked up one. Since the n6020 had a camera , video recorder and a voice recorder , the functions are the same as a nokia 7260. Hmm , after was looking for a place to eat and we are like "Nari nak makan besar ke kecik" And i replied "Besar arh!'
So off we went to Pizza Hut. Ordered so much food, a regular bbq chicken pizza , beef lasagne, chicken drumsticks, curly fries , calamari rings , boloignese pasta and soup. Just the TWO of us. I cannot even breathe after eating all that.And we refilled the clam chowder soup with the veggie soup , 2 times. Haha.. and i even took the salad. Haizz.. We really love to eat. We plan to 'makan besar' once a month. We've been to swensens , pastamania and pizza hut .. i guess next would be either cafe cartel or seoul garden.

Happyyyyy

2005-09-23T23:42:00.000-07:00

As usual , Friday routine would be Hubby fetch me from school , went home to change while hubby waits at the coffeeshop. After that we went to Bedok Central to survey handphone prices and bought a phone. Yippee.. Paid my bills at Singpost , hoping that i can use back the line but i was told that the line had been disconnected as in terminated!. So i will have to bring my mum , who is the subscriber down to the counter to activate it back . Duh thats a lot of work. Anyway went to Bugis to buy the top at D.P. Simply love it , but the colour that i want do not have my size , so had to buy Lilac. But its still quite nice. Then off we went to Peninsula , to shop for Hubby's shoes . Hubby is soooo choosy , cant stand it. Hehe. I bought a sandal too , coz my favouriteeee sandal dah patah!. Aizzz... After we got all our stuffs, we went to Komala's to eat. After being with me for a few years , Hubby suddenly loves Indian Food. He told me that previously he didnt know how to eat Indian Food. Until i take him to Tekka one day and explore the indian life. Will be meeting Hubby tomorrow.. Goodnight

How Old is my InNer ChILD

2005-09-20T22:56:00.000-07:00

Took this quiz earlier on....

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person.But when you don't get your way, watch out.Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want.Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

Sad..

2005-09-19T20:49:00.000-07:00

Ooops i broke my promise , it is stated in my earlier post that i wanna keep full attendance this week , but i didnt go to school today. Went to the mortuary to see Iz's body and then to Masjid Pusara Aman to do the burial. At first i kept cool and didnt cry , but after i saw his 'mayat' to tabur the 'pacai' , i burst into tears.. It does not look like him at all. And his death certificate states that the cause of death is that body decomposed in consistent with drowning. He was last seen in Sembawang Park and is found at Tanjong Irau , which i dunno where. I feel so affected although we are not close but looking at his mother and sister crying , it was a heart wrenching situation.

Haiyah , Hubby's phone value is low and its so difficult to contact him. Slept at 4 am yesterday and so i guess its time for me to log off.. TATA

LoST...

2005-09-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

I feel so lost , im so afraid.. of death. There are still so many things i want to do. Heard from Zai that one of my schoolmates passed away. Drowned in Sembawang Park. I just cant believe it becozi just saw him on Thursday looking so cheerful , luffing around and all and now i received this sudden news. We may not be close but i dunno why i kept thinking of him. He's a teenager with lots of unfulfilled dreams and this had to happen. is close frenz Zai , Aizat , Azari etc etc... must be very sad. I hope that he will rest in peace AlFateha.

Anyway went to Bishan to meet up Ain , and went to the Flea Market at blk 182 and i really dont wanna discuss bout it coz its soooo menyakitkan hati. Duh! After that went to meet Hubby and Yan and off we went to Bugis. Ate Laksa , yummy.. Saw this beautiful top at D.P cost 46 bucks. Gonna buy it next week. Gonna start full attendance in school starting from tomorrow hopes so... Exams are round the corner and im so stresses up. Haha! Thats so unlike me....

Sleepy sleep now.. TATA

FrEnz

2005-09-16T18:45:00.000-07:00

I dont know why nowadays everyone around me is pissing me off. I mean i dun hate em. But im juz dissapointed. Hurt.. Sometimes i feel tat people loves taking advantage of me. Am i silly or what? But i shall not ponder over it , it stresses me. I shall live life to the fullest and just ignore any unhappiness. Cheh! Cam real jer.. Its been 2 weeks since i had a date wit Hubby. Haizz.. Both busy with our school and work. Hmm took some pics 2 days ago before leaving for school...

yIPPEE

2005-09-13T15:37:00.000-07:00

yippee! Its been 2 days since i went to school , two days of mc!! Nowadays i hate school , i donno why . I love to stay home and rest , watch dvd , surf , tok on the fon.. how great life is. Anyway , went to Hubby's sister's wedding. Too bad her makeup not really that fantastic. I mean she looks the same.Hubby's parents are so nice towards me. And guess what his mum called me?
'Napisah , Maznah , Faizah , Fiza and finally , after much correction , FairuSah! Its FAIRUZAH makcik!!!!!!!. The last time i went to his house his mother even called me Esah! ewww.. Went to smoke wit his sis in law and she told me to push Hubby , she meant, to push him to work hard. She said that Hubby needs someone to support him , I told her that i've always been supporting him right from the start of our relationship. Finally saw Hubby ride a bike , but illegally. His brother's bike , and he kept practising his jam brake and his blindspot thingy. He looked so cute on a PHantom bike.. kekekeke Anyway .. here are some pics for ya...

The last pic is a pic of Hubby's family,, ehem ehem my future in laws....

Hubby's nephew is sucha darling , and he got this innocent face which made me sooo geram..

Geylang N Simei

2005-09-11T22:53:00.000-07:00

Had an outing wit my mum today , went to Geylang coz mum wants to survey some curtains for hari raya and she became so hyperactive at the sight of curtains and bedsheets. Saw this beautiful kurti with all the labucis hehe , i pleaded mum to buy it for me! I really love it! Its black in colour , i love black.. Gonna wear this to Hubby's house kenduri tomorrow. Maklumlah nak jumpa mak mentua semua mesti jaga imej... Hubby wanted me to wear baju kurung but i refused. I wanna wear something modern. And so , im gonna wear a Kurti !! To those of you who donno what a kurti is , its like that....

After that went to Changi General Hospital to visit my sick uncle. Pity him , he got tubes all over . Hope that he will get well soon. gtg

VMA

2005-09-10T23:19:00.000-07:00

Nothing much today , spent the time at home doing nothing.. watched DeuCE Bigalow European Gigolo.. it makes no sense at all... shouldnt have downloaded it.. Anyway , my best bud gimme a ring juz now and i was so shocked to hear that she's getting married. Going to register at ROMM next week. So happy for her , and i can be her child's godmother.. Yipee. Hope that you will have a lifetime marital bliss.. with ur husband aite?? Watched the Video Music Awards 2005 juz now , and Kanya West was so rude! Throughout the interview he was wiping his shoe with a red cloth...and the interviewer had to juz asked him questions and he didnt even cared to look at her. EEE I hate him now!

I miss Hubby , its been 5 days since we met , i cant wait to meet him... :::

Emotional Blues

2005-09-09T21:23:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Bapak!!!

Birthdaes are supposed to be a happy occasion , we buy cakes and gifts for our loved ones and celebrate it with good food and music... exchanged hugs and kisses... but its not the same now. Everything's changed. Bapak is no more, and i wont be able to celebrate his birthdae with him forever. You know, ever since he passed away , i always got a feeling that he is still here , watching over his three babies , that is my bro my sis n me. Somehow i can feel his presence. Every little things remind me of him. I was reminded of him when i saw his photos , when i saw his bed , clothes , hindustani cds, his mohd rafi trophy. Everything. He is a good singer.. he always sings to me. No one understand the pain of having lost ur loved ones unless you go thru it. How i wish i could turn back the hands of time..

Dedicated to my Bapak:

When I was a little girl, You'd bounce me on your knee,
You'd tell me i was pretty, And i always tried to please,
When i had a bad day, It was you I'd go running to,
You'd tell me it would be alright, ...........I believed in you......

I fell to my knees and cried, I cried, "Daddy,dont go! I've been loving you all my life
You're my hero,dont you know If i was better, would u stay? Please Daddy,dont go," Through the times when you were gone, I shed many a tear,

All the things you were missing, I just wanted you to be near,
I sit by your bed and cry, I cry, "Daddy,dont go! I've been loving you all my life,
I cant stand to lose you,Please, Daddy,dont go!"

Allright , enuff emo.. :P Had a tiff wit Hubby juz now ... I dunno why but sometimes im sucha bitch. I get angry for no reason and get upset over nothing. And poor Hubby had to put up wit my nonsense. But i dun care , coz i hate it when Hubby spends more time on something else than me. I should be his first priority and he must put me first. Not his bike license! Tak habis habis practical practical, lesson lesson! Like Duh! I may sound mean and possesive but hey thats what im like. Why am i like this? I always think of my self and not others , i should understand hubby right? Since its his dream to get a bike license , i should support him! Not behaving like this right?! I know u all will say that... but stil.. i dun understand why.. he should know how to balance work , prac ,and ME!

Sucha coincidence , juz when i was posting an entry about him he called...hehe.. gtg...

Funny Quiz

2005-09-09T05:21:00.000-07:00

Took this silly quiz ...'What tattoo would you have' and got this result

Heart Tattoo

What tattoo would you have?
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PhUcK Em aLL

2005-09-06T14:30:00.000-07:00

I dun understand why are there cowards around... C'mon lah.. berani buat.. tapi tak nak own up..Nak tag pakai nama org apa hal?? Takde pu** apa? Eh aku tak heran ah takde kawan cam korang.. siapa yang nak be 'frenz' ngan korang.. duh... dari gitu.. lebih baik aku kawan ngan anjing sua.. lagi mulia.. at least it wont talk behind ma back... Takde mase ah nak layan...You teeny weeny losers sucha pain in da neck...Tak kuasa nak penat kan diri aku ngan kerenah korang.. u can juz go to hell...

Boringgggggggg im so bored... in school rite now.. doing excel.. excel sucks.. i hate it.. In fact i hate school.. sometimes i feel like quitting.. but..i cant... Wont be meeting Hubby today.. he'll be goin to bbdc again... nowadays he spent more time in bbdc than wit me.. takpelah.. if tats he wants i respect his decisions.. We still love each other and we wont let any distractions to come in between us.. Duh.. why nowadays i become sooo jiwang.. i dunno.. love is in the air maybe.. kahkahakah

Hubby bought couple ring!.. Happy sey.. But we will have to travel all the way to Westmall to polish the ring... Hmm orite will update more later.. need to finish some excel shit...

MOvIe maRaThOn

2005-09-04T14:28:00.000-07:00

Wohoo.. didnt attend school juz now.. woke up late.. Hubby was supposed to wake me up at 8.15 but he called me at 9 instead. Im so bored and decided to watch all the new movies that are showing in theatres... for FREE... hehe... i cant believe it.. I downloaded Herbie Fully Loaded , Charlie N The Choco Factory , The Longest Yard and the Wedding Crashers. Yippee...

Really need to study for my driving test next week.. cant wait.. Hubby's having his bike Practical 2 later... and his RTL tomorrow.. hope he'll pass... hmmm...

15 September.. i cant wait.. my lil secret... kekekekekeke... only hubby and yana knows... Ssshhhh

Pardon me.. i know my blog's ugly.. and there's no tagboard... but i deliberately dont wanna tagboard.. coz i dun need any comments from ppl.. after seeing what happened to een and fazilah's blog.. i decided... i decided not to have a tagboard... you come.. you read.. you leave... you dun need to give me any comments or tags.. aite..

Yey

2005-08-30T14:09:00.000-07:00

I can meet hubby everyday now.. coz he is now working in the morning shift... !!... Arghh had to pay 5 bucks to the admin office for illegal using of lockers.. pandai makan duit orang...Hmm.. I promised myself that i will attend school regularly from now on.. will i be able to do that?? Hmm lets see... Guys.. for the meantime.. make do without the tagboard... im revamping my blog.. this is just the temporary layout.. hmm.. I cant wait for 15 September!!! Heheh SeCrEt arhhhh!!!Ok sleely sleep now....

The Maid And The Menstrual Cramp

2005-08-26T10:15:00.000-07:00

Heya... its been quite a while since i blogged... its the 1 week holidays for the ITE students... met hubby yesterday at city hall... he panicked the moment he saw me coz i was crying in pain. The menstrual cramp was unbearable.. i couldnt take it..hubby bought me panadols and i felt better.. hehe... hubby said i looked cute when i cry... duhh!!..We window shopped and i saw this beautiful sequinned blouse at Dorothy Perkins... But its kind of see-thru material... and hubby FORBIDS... me to buy it... I really love it though... We ate at Peninsula's Komala's...mmmmm ..the onion rawa masala was fabulous... and hubby ordered the briyani rice... i simply love indian food ya know...And The Maid was really scary....thumbs up to the sound effects.. i was practically covering my whole face in hubby's arms... and he kept pinching my arm whenever the ghost appears.. HUbby scared eh.... tak malu....

Oh ya... hubby is having this bigggg thingy on his eyes... he may need a minor surgery.. poor sayang... remember to makan ubat ok??

EsCaPe tHeMe pArK

2005-08-20T12:29:00.000-07:00

Today im sooo happy, spent the whole day wit ma hubby... from 10 AM till 11PM...Damn tired... but it was well worth it. Guess where we went to today?? Escape Theme Park! It was a lot of fun... especially with the new haunted house... damn funny.. there's this scary looking ghost who will run after you..yes im not joking... the ghost will try and catch up with you... i was like " You larii!!! Lari!!!" HAHA... And for the first time ever... after 2 yrs plus of dating... Hubby finally saw it!! Ahha dun let your imaginations run wild... He saw me cried like a baby... Because of one of the stupid rides , i became sooo scared i felt like puking and i started crying.. no not the silent one.. the breathless type... child-like.... Hubby's so sweet.. he kissed my forehead and said "Jangan nangis lah, dia bucuk ke wangi??" Heheh.. and so i stopped crying... Had too much Coke today.... down with a bad cough now...

Sometimes i wonder why there are people who are very irritating in the world? They make people hate them... What do they gain from talking behind ppl's back? They can talk behind me or even in front for all i care... i dun give a f***. U live your life... i live mine... i dun owe u a living.. You wanna criticize me? Go ahead , but why should i be affected by what you said? Im afraid it doesnt work on me. All i know is that im happy..happy with everything i have right now.. and no one can put me down.... no one can do anything to me.. trust me.. you never want to offend me.. Coz im a bloody Taurean... with a foul mood... dont regret it coz i believe in retribution...

To all those people , yang terasa , this post is definitely for ya.. im not scared... im not afraid... you are juz a teeny weeny freak... Bleargh.. in fact , you are NOTHING.. you are juz a bunch of poor losers , who thinks the world is yours. Face it , huh.....

Last Kiss Attempt turned out to be funny.. haha

2005-08-19T08:35:00.001-07:00

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Second Kiss Attempt

2005-08-19T08:35:00.000-07:00

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First Kiss Attempt

2005-08-19T08:34:00.000-07:00

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Mamam ke HuBBy?

2005-08-19T08:33:00.001-07:00

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Mamam Nasi Goreng

2005-08-19T08:33:00.000-07:00

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Zulie N Yana

2005-08-19T08:32:00.001-07:00

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sillyfrenz

2005-08-19T08:32:00.000-07:00

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Hubby

2005-08-19T08:31:00.001-07:00

Hubby
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Husband n Wife

2005-08-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

Bak N Jan
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LALALALA

2005-08-19T00:36:00.000-07:00

Had a lot of fun today , school finishes at 12noon and went to meet Hubby at Bishan.. Decided to chill wit ma frenz at the usual coffeeshop near our school.. We kept cracking jokes and its good to know that Hubby is communicating well wit ma frens... Went to Singapore Safety Driving Centre.... had to go down again on 15 Sep... got to apply for approve leave...Haiz.. And so we went to 888 kopitiam.. the so called 'famous with matreps' kopitiam... duh... kedoinkz! Pas tu pi rumah Apai.. chill2 katak... his mum is so sweet.. she even asked me to be the kendarat on her niece's wedding.. well.. i will grab any opportunity when there's money involved... Yeeha! Pictures uploaded! Hubby tried to kiss me but I kept luffing.. and the pictures turned out to be soo hilarious.. haha

pIcs

2005-08-18T18:28:00.000-07:00

My LoVelY HoMe!!!!

And SiMpLy mE!!!

hAPPY hAPPy

2005-08-18T17:08:00.000-07:00

Will be meeting hubby tomorrow... and saturday! yippee.. he got an off day on a Saturday ! Thats really rare ya know..Thought of going to theme park with him... i wanna be like a child and scream and be happy wif him... hmm.. lets see... I had been wanting to book my basic theory but kept procastinating .... hmm may be i should go tomorrow.... since im freee... haizz these week had been a boring week..balik balik tu jugak nothing happened..... ok lah i think i update more later.. wannacook maggi

I LovE U BuCuK!

2005-08-13T21:36:00.000-07:00

Mum went to T.Pinang and will only be back on Monday...kemas rumah macam orang gila... how i wish there's a maid to do everything for me.. haha...

Ok so i went to Compass Point.. again to have lunch wit Hubby , really miss him...Today hubby is very irritating... kept bugging me to put on eyeliner on his eyes for him... He said that he wanna see how he look like with eyeliner.. Crazy kan?? And so i did... He looked at himself in the mirror and quickly rubbed his eyes... and said "EEE cam bapok !!" Duhh.. eyeliners for girlz....although our Nabi Muhammad put on eyeliner for Friday prayers... hehe ..And so i headed straight home...

! SLEEPYHEAD!

2005-08-12T15:07:00.000-07:00

Didnt attend school for two days already... damn lazy... went to the clinic today and the damn doctor forced me to join the smoking cessation clinic.. what the heck!... And i have to go to the asthma workshop.. dont want arh! Siapa mau layan! Reached at 8.30... left the clinic at 11! I nearly cried... hehe.. My class advisor called juz now..he seems to be worried bout my attendance.. i hope i wont get debar from my exams... Yesterday went to Compass Point to meet hubby.... got a scolding from him coz i showed him my middle finger when he was working.. haha.. he said that it was so uncalled for.. takleh kene sikit lah dia......

Ok lah. i feel so sleepy... ZZZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzZZzz

Happy Birthday

2005-08-09T23:38:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Singapore!!!

Ok so its National Day... i get to stay at home the whole day and watch tv.. Shooting Stars is boring... Full Circle is great.. but i dunt understand why ITE students have to attend school on Wednesday? Isnt it suppose to be a public holiday... from my understanding... the primary sch kids and the sec sch kids need not attend school!!!!! Arghhh! I hate it... but then again school starts at 10 and ends at 3 tomorrow... might as well go right???

Hmm.... i ate a lot today... sambal sotong... cheezels... chipsmore....chocolate... n bread...
Oh my thats a lot!! Thats the reason why i dun stick at home... i tend to eat a lot when im bored... Its different when u r outside when u have to pay for ur food... and coz of tat u try not to buy any food...to save money....hehe.. so all of you.. to prevent from binge eating... GO OUT OFTEN! Comotz's Tip...... haha

Aite tk cr all of u.... gd nitey nite.... chaoromano

sHORT hAIR!

2005-08-06T04:44:00.000-07:00

I cant believe i did it... after so long... i did it.. i cut my hair...my hair is short.. not really short.. but its short! I love long hair... but i had to becoZ my hair is damaged.... hmmm.. nevermind... hope it will not take a long time to grow....met hubby jus now.. bought me cheese prata and so sweet of him to feed me...i feel like a little baby... hmm.. i love u dear....

Me N You

Shoppin'

2005-08-05T00:45:00.000-07:00

Had fun todae , went to town with Ain , Yana and Anep Biol... Had our usual favourite laksa. Yummy , pedas sampai naik meleleh hingus.. ermm.. hehe. Bought a white skirt at fox wisma.. they are having a crazy 50% sale.. Sis's birthday is coming so bought her a hot pink straw bag... its kinda nice... boleh lah pinjam pinjam....My feet is aching now.. thanks to Ain.. who cant get enuff of shopping.. in the end............. she bought only a HAIRBAND!... duhhh.. hehe.. Ain if u reading this... sorry erk..

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Me: Eh beg ni colour dia lawa eh.. purple dia very nice lah.. pandai kau choose

Ain: C'mon lah , tengok ah siapa choose. See the leg , see the body ......

Ni part memang Ain mintak kene 'pump'.....

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Me: Hello? You! I kene lock kat luar rumah!Lupa bawak kunci! Macam mana?! Sini byk bangla! takut!!!

Hubby: Eh! Alah u duduk ah kat tepi lift tu , abeh nak i buat apa seyyyy??

Haizz... menyirap darah ... ni pon mintak kene 'pump'

Fever!

2005-08-03T04:35:00.000-07:00

Im sooo having fever ....38.5.. i felt like fainting on the way to school but i forced myself to attend school. My nose is blocked and im having difficulty breathing.. Oh god help me! Tats it i have no mood to blog... i feel like dying.... bye... be back tomorrow

Sick!

2005-08-01T22:53:00.000-07:00

I didnt attend school today, had a very bad sore throat, and a bad cold. So here i am blogging away. Hmmm yesterday's outing wit hubby was great , went to bugis street and he bought a sling bag for himself... for work. Had our dinner at Swensen's ... the food there is really cheesy , but the sticky chewy choco ice cream is fabulous! But thanks to the ice cream , im down wif sore throat today.Yesterday we had a talk about our future. We are thinking of getting engaged , early 2007.... he has started saving money every month and hopes to get married on year 2008 , by then i would be 21.. still too young to get married but .. i dun care.. hehe..

Oh yeah , the bitches are so primary-school like , i felt like luffing ! HAHAHA! C'mon girls , get a life... grow up! And i have every right to call you whatever names i want.. i dun owe u a living... so scram off... and oh yeah your 2 pathetic galfrens , oh soo sad.. really damn pathetic.. Like what Fazilah and Een said, your gelled fringe is really a turn off. Thumbs Up een n fazila... !
Your whole hair is covered in gel , the gel company is making really good business.. haha!..
And bitch , thanks for reading...

MonDaY bLuES!

2005-08-01T11:19:00.000-07:00

Boring ! Boring! Malas sey nak pergi sekolah.. How i wish i can just continue sleeping. How nice life would be. Im in class now , having Effective Writing.. I've been feeling nauseous since i came back from Johor yesterday. I feel like vomiting , and i have a very bad headache. Ergh! I think maybe its food poisoining , coz me n ma family ate at Larkin coffeeshop , where there are lots of flies... bad bad idea.. Yesterday's outing was ok , not much fun...the traffic was very bad.. imagine a 5 min drive from Johor checkpoint to Woodland checkpoint can lasts up to 1hr ! Ok so we 'tempah' baju raya and went to City Square. Too bad i cant shop... coz i'm broke. So i juz bought a simple black shoe for school , some butterfly clips and a body spray. Plus some foodstuffs like yogurt , cookies , hashbrowns n etc. Yummy....

Today meeting hubby at Bishan after school , as usual, we will always meet up on his off day.I cant wait , im always looking forward to his off day simply because i can be in his arms. Im so in love. I've never felt this way. Our 2 yr ++ relationship has changed me completely . Ok for now , got to do some e-learning stuffs . Chaoromano!

gODdESS

2005-07-31T20:44:00.000-07:00

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I want that BoDy! I want that Hair! I want that SmIlE! She's purrrfect!
How i wish i can be like her..and be confident of my self.. :(

Boring Saturday

2005-07-30T07:12:00.000-07:00

I'll be going to Johor tomorrow .. prolly to larkin and city square to do some shopping .... i cant wait.. i wanna kikis my mum... i really need a new sling bag... :(

met hubby just now..juz for a while because he needs to go to work.. did some cosmetics shopping.. bought a mascara and an eyeshadow... i really want to buy the new mascara from maybelline but its too expensive... i've been coughing a lot these few days... had an asthma attack yesterday night.. but im better now..

cacuzi_pic

2005-07-30T07:11:00.001-07:00

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what can i say??? we had fun

flower2

2005-07-30T07:11:00.000-07:00

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duhh..dont i look sweet??

flower1

2005-07-30T07:10:00.000-07:00

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feeling hawaiian i can see.. red hibiscus on their ears... haha

Tired!

2005-07-29T04:35:00.000-07:00

Me and my frens went swimming yesterday and now im like a prawn dipped in soy sauce. But we had fun. Meeting hubby tomorrow and cant wait to see him again... i dunno why but i always look forward to meeting him... i guess thats what love is all about.... I thought of cutting of my damaged hair.. and let it grow a new bunch of hair but i worry that i will look funny wif short hair plus hubby would not let me cut my hair..ERGH! Anyway, one of the bitch is out , left another two. Seeing their faces in school really irks me. But then again i have other friends who made me happy , so why bother bout the two irritating bitch? I dun giv a damn anyway....

I cant for Sunday , hubby dapat gaji!!... He's buying me a ring , a couple ring , which he had promised me on my bday but due to some reasons were unable to buy them. I cant wait....

AlOHA!!

2005-07-07T01:22:00.000-07:00

Aloha! I've decided to make a comeback to the blogging world... after the demise of my previous blog 'www.mizzyoca.blogspot.com' since September 2004. So here i am back for a fresh start in my life. Year 2004 had been a very complicated year for me , i was depressed , i was close to suicide and days were spent crying... and why is that so? I prefer to keep mum. But, hey its 2005! Right now im happy , happy to be in the arms of my significant other. Alas! Reunited , no words can ever describe the feelings i've gone through...Before i start blogging further , i would like to remind you guys , i have the right to say anything i want , this reminder is actually due to the amount of hate tags that other bloggers get. Hmmm..................

Ok so im in school right now , having Business Software Application. And im not even listening to my trainer. School sucks... really.. Today school ends at 5pm.. what a hectic day , on top of that i had to do some shitty make up lessons for Sports n Wellness and run around the bloody school! And its 3 Rounds! Mind you!.... And the stupid teacher asked me to join sports day for their throwing event..No Way! I was never a sportswomen to begin with. That explains my weight. Ahakz! After this me , Ain n Yana meeting up with my old time fren Ayie... Its been a long time since we hang out together and he wants to hang out at Coffee Bean. Dear wants me back home by 6. And i had to lie that im doing a project. Hehe! Uja's been a notti girl huh... Yesterday there's this guy who smsed me and spouts nonsense. So Mr 'Fierce Udin' is angry with me and keep calling that guy. He wants to fight it out. Until i told him that i wont be scandaling around and that i love only him.HeHE ..maknenek me won his heart and we are ok now. In fact he is so sweet yesterday , he treated me to Pastamania, we had a Salami Pizza , Ocean Baked Lasagne and a Mirana Spaghetti. Wow! On top of that yesterday is the first time he sent me back home.. until the 12th floor! And i brought Boboy(my kitty) out for him to see. He's a sweetie... Orite.. now my fingers are shouting for help..Will update more...